I know I have been mostly silent for awhile. There have been a lot of changes since my last published blog- but I have had many, many draft posts since becoming a wife and step-mother. The adventures are daily, and often too crazy to even talk aloud about. It's wonderful and full and absolutely never, ever boring. Marriage has refined both of us, and I'm un-learning how to be stubbornly independent & single while he's un-learning the things that went wrong for him in his first time around and living like a bachelor for the last 4 years. We are not each other's ex's, and God knew we needed one another to do some internal works in us both. The addition of two bonus kids and becoming a step-mom has been an absolute whirlwind- think motherhood on exponential steroids at speeds of 10,000 miles an hour in first gear and you might come close.
Since becoming a step-mom, I can understand the plight and desperation of many of my mother's that come to see me for records & radiology images at work with a much more adept understanding & empathy. There are several mom's that come to mind recently, with their fears, questions, love and desperation for answers, and because of HIPAA reasons, I cannot talk about many of the details of their individual situations. Being on the other side of the desk & window(s) myself as a medical anomaly proved to be an amazing impetus for my passion to pray for my clients and patients. However, since becoming a mother myself, it's added an entirely new depths & dimensions that cannot be described. I had a mother come to me needing her son's imaging because they were finally going to the Mayo Clinic after being on the wait list for 8+ months for what they thought was a tumor in his brain. He's 4 months younger than my daughter. From custody battles, abuse, yet-diagnosed or untreated conditions, to kids simply being kids and 125% in all they do... well, I can now personally understand and sympathize with these mom's that see life in very dark, uncertain and desperate moments and I totally understand that mama bear feeling of needing answers when there seems to be tunnel vision and little hope. May I be a part of bringing them peace to their uncertain times.
