I'm tired

I'm simply tired. I'm tired of pursuing my friends and getting no response- un-returned emails, voicemails, texts... I just don't have that much energy to give anyway, so when it goes un-returned, it makes me feel even more rejected and alone- which let's be honest, is the last thing I need right now. So I'm using that time instead to focus on my studies, unpack more boxes, and settle back in to the Downing House. It's great being back- I've really missed this community of people and believers- they're so wonderful and supportive through everything! It still adds up to more change and ambiguity through it all though. I miss the family I was living with, but I know we'll still see each other.

My neurologist is re-submitting more paperwork to the Mayo Clinic to try and get me in there, but it feels like a long shot. I see a headache specialist here in Denver in a few weeks, so it's not that I'm putting all of my eggs in that basket, but at least she specializes in these. I got another message yesterday (we've been playing phone tag for almost a month) with the driving department here at Craig Hospital- and I'll probably have to wait until August to get that last restriction (driving at night) taken off of my license. Trying to not be bitter about waiting another 2 MONTHS when I've already had to wait a year and a half (for the convenience of others in the driving dept to not have to come into work at 9pm)- but this whole process just seems silly! I know there has to be a silver lining in this situation somehow, it's just hard to see right now. My friend Sheri (from the family I was living with) has started to do a gratitude journal, and I think I'm going to start one as well to not get negative about these sucky things that keep happening to me. There's a lot to be thankful for, and I need to focus on that instead through it all.
Love,
Amy Christine